Hi, my name is Vaibhavi Goyal, and welcome to Choose Fullness.

Your emotions reveal your heart and what you care about most. For me, anxiety has always been the most prominent one. It shows up when I want certainty, when I want to know what is coming next, and when I want to feel prepared for every possible outcome. But we were never called to live predictable lives. We were called to live ones that require trust, flexibility, and a willingness to walk forward without all the answers. Even knowing this, it is so much easier said than done.

In a world full of options, not knowing can feel unbearable. Not knowing what to do next, what the new year will bring, whether that job offer will come, or what you will do if it doesn’t. There is a constant pressure to have a plan, and an even heavier pressure to have the right one, as if certainty is proof that you are doing life correctly.

It often feels like an endless, unbeatable challenge. I struggle with not being able to map out every detail or explain exactly how the rest of my day will unfold. My mind looks for something to hold onto, something to analyze or prepare for, and there is always a new scenario waiting to be examined. Even when I plan everything down to the minute, there is still a question left. Something small, like whether I should wear leggings or jeans. The leggings make sense if I want to work out, but what if it is cold, what if I regret it. The cycle keeps going, disguised as productivity or effective problem solving, when really it is just fear asking to be reassured.

As this year comes to a close, I have been thinking more intentionally about my mindset and the stories I let myself repeat. No matter how familiar they feel, there is relief in releasing the same anxious scenarios I have carried for years. Right now, that feels possible. I am coming off winter break, the pressure is lighter, the stress is quieter. But I keep asking myself what it would look like to walk into the semester not trying to eliminate uncertainty, but learning how to live alongside it.

I think it starts with a shift in how I see not knowing. What if it is not a weakness, but a kind of freedom. What if I do not need to be in control of every detail in order to be okay. I cannot know everything, and maybe I was never meant to. It is December twenty second, and I do not need to have the whole year figured out. Right now, my only responsibility is to be present where I am.

Somewhere along the way, not knowing became something to hide, something to apologize for. We are expected to have answers ready, plans rehearsed, and certainty on display. But there is a quiet peace in admitting that you do not know yet. It may not look impressive, and it may not feel confident, but it allows room for rest. We were not designed to be prediction machines. We were designed to be people, living ordinary days and receiving the gift of being alive as it comes.

As the new year approaches, pay attention to what you are feeling. It is easy to distract yourself, to scroll, to stay busy, to fill every quiet moment. But try sitting with your emotions instead. Let them tell you what matters to you without letting them take control. Your emotions do not have to define you, they can inform you, guide you, and then gently step aside as you choose how to move forward.

So remember—your glass is full. Whether you see it that way is up to you.